Time to believe.
by DragonRunnerFeb 29th 2016
Where has the time gone, i have not realise how long it been since last putting my fingers on the keyboard to write up my thoughts of the last few months. It is a time of mixed emotions, where mainly my mind has got the better of me. So much to the point, that not much training (or anything else) has gone on.
Both mentally and physically I must have been at the lowest I can remember. The mental side of things has creeped up on me. It not as if I did't know the warning signs, it's just that I did not want to believe what was happening and ignore everything. This has totally changed how I react to situations. The largest thing is that I am more aware of what is going on around me, and I cannot believe how easily some people will take what they are getting told without challenging or even looking at the situation from both sides. I am not the type of person that will say "I told you so" I know I will help them get back on track, I suppose it's a case of people feel that they must be at the centre of attention and what they say is true because they say so. One of the skills I have developed, especially over the last few weeks, is to step back and take the blinkers off, it is at this point I have realised what has been go on.
The physical side of thing have improved considerable as well. After chasing up the Botox injections I need to help me the spasticity of the lower legs (and this probably was't helping with my mind either). I have had the top up dose into the muscle of the lower legs, I am not sure if it is the size of the needle or the electrical impulse delivered to the muscle to see if the needle is in the correct location, this has to be one of the most painful experiences I know. Even to the point of passing out, so why people choose to have this done for looks in beyond me.
The weather has not been great over the last few months, which considering the way I was feeling is a bonus, but I have now started back training, and already seeing the benefits. An area that I have concentrated on initially is my bike work. A new training facility has opened up a few miles away from home. Cycle Specific which uses "Watt Bike" has given me a new sense of focus on my training, what I am achieving now on the bike is nothing like what I have done in the past, the gains I have already achieved is way beyond my expectations. It has also given my a new positive outlook and indirectly has helped me put some ghost's which have appeared in my life to bed, the what if list is growing smaller by the week.
Over the next few weeks I have three events, that will give me a good focus on where I am and what I need to do, training my of started a bit late, however with this new positive approach it is going to be a good few weeks. So in the space of 10 days there will be Bath Half Marathon, the Sport Relief Swimathon 5k Swim and the World Half Marathon.
So for now thank you for reading and you're welcoming and supportive encouragement.
Operation Abba - The Reunion (Just #believe)
My next race
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